Understanding the + vs -

WOW it has been a LONG long long time since I have blogged on the Super Woman blog...

How to start off...Well I guess that I should say that old saying of "I have good news and I have bad, which one do you want first" but instead I will begin with do you want the Positive first OR do you want the Negative?  Well the Negitive wins...

I have been so very hard on myself lately.  I can't seem to get it together.  I feel like I am failing at being a mother, wife and just plain ol Dyan.  I feel very sad, blue, I have no motivation whats so ever to do ANYTHING.  When someone asks how I am doing I reply, busy, tired, worn out, ect.  Who wants to hear that as a reply?  Very depressing.  Well it is the truth.  It seems like every winter I start to feel this way.  I guess it is all the time that I spend inside.  My vitamin D count must go way down because I start feeling depressed and no good to anyone. I am not feeling great about myself and I feel like eating, but then eating is where the problem stems from how I feel about myself.  It really is a vicious cycle and I know who is behind it.  So today in the tanning bed, that's right Vit D!  I just started praying to God to help me help myself.  I asked him to take away that desire to eat bad food and to really start helping me to put the craving energy into something else, like praying for those who surround me, who love me, who are there for me.  I asked Him to put someone's name in my head that I could pray for whenever I had a craving for something that I SHOULD not have.  I need to go back to the book Made to Crave and re-read it.  It seemed to help having another place to put my energy. I need to take care of myself so I can better take care of my family.  That is IT with the negative attitude!

Now I really debated whether I should bold in the Super Mom blog or if I should blog in the Journey to a New me blog, but this one won out.  So with every negative there needs to be a positive and this is why this blog won out.  

I am a second year deer hunter.  This year I got my first buck/deer.  It was a prefect day, My sister Meghan was able to come over in the early afternoon and watch the kids for me.  She picked up Christian from school so I could go out.  Jory was at work and so I went out by myself.  I got into my tree around 1:15pm.  I sat and sat...I almost fell out of the tree when a squirrel jumped into the tree right next to me and about scarred me to death.  So after I recovered from my near heart attack, I was just sitting and listing to the peace and quiet when I heard it...I heard the scraping of a buck's rack against a tree.  I looked and looked all around in front of me, and I could not find him.  I thought to myself that he might be behind me. and low and behold there he was.  Two trees behind me.  Now there was two things that could have happened.  One was that he could have started walking away from me, OR he could turn and start walking RIGHT under me!  Well his decision was made and he walked right under me.  Well there were too many trees in the way, so I had to wait until he was in the clearing and that is when I shot him.  It was a perfect shot from about 40yards.  He ran about 20 yards and was down.  I will tell you it was an amazing adrenalin rush for me.  I was so proud of myself that I did it on my own.  PLUS it was a 10 point buck.  I will probably never shoot another one that large again.  That is ok.  I was really worried that Jory would be upset that this year he did not get anything.  I was worried of him being jealous of me.  He was so very encouraging and he started bragging on me.  He was SO proud of me, that I was willing to go out on my own and hunt AND get my first deer was so cool to him that jealousy never even crossed his mind!  I have the coolest hubby in the world! 

My kids are growing growing growing!  Christian is in kindergarten now and Lily and I have most of the day just her and I!  I am loving this time with my girl.  I am still working just two days a week and it seems to be working out great for me and for my family.  We started a new tradition in the house this Christmas...We have adopted an Elf.  His name is Zingo and he is an ornery little guy.  It is really fun to see Christian wake up every morning and try and find what Zingo has been up to.  It has really helped with the attitudes of my children.  They know that every evening after they go to bed, Zingo flies up to Santa to give him the report of them being good or bad.  So far, So good!  That is all positive and I know that I have a great life and a GREAT hubby and GREAT children. 

So here is what I know to be true.  I know that I am a child of God, My husband adores me, I love my kids and they are growing to fast, I know that I am worth the time to take care of myself and that I need to love myself enough to let the little things in this life go.  I know that I have awesome great friends who love me for who I am.  There should be nothing now to bring my mood down.  Now that I KNOW these things to be true.  I still could use prayers to help me get out of the "funk" that I am in.  I will be praying for you all often.  Thanks for reading!

 

  

 

Mothers Day and all the Joys...

We had a really great last weekend.

It was my first time getting to ride/drive my new boat! OH MY GOODNESS, it was WONDERFUL! I LOVE IT!!! We were able to get down to the lake in the afternoon on Friday last week. We made a quick run on the lake that night, and we got out again Saturday afternoon. Christian broke in the new swim platform by jumping in the water! Oh my, he said it was REALLY cold! The kids will love it when it gets warmer. We saw Adam and Paula and baby Lydia. We saw both of their parents this past weekend too! It was nice seeing everyone.

We came home Saturday night, so I could take care of nursery duties on Sunday morning. It was graduation for NTS, and we had visitors. After I took care of some stuff, we left early and went to the Royals game. I got a free Royals tote bag, and a sunburn. It was good to get out and enjoy the weather and watch a baseball game. Fun times were had by all!

After the game we headed home and had my family over for dinner. Brats and Hotdogs. It was god to relax and let Jory take care of the grilling! I love my family!

Jory and the kids got me a Kindle for Mothers Day! I LOVE it! I love reading, but to carry books back and forth to the lake and places I go, is just a pain. This is nice cause I can throw it in my purse and go! I have a TON of books on my wish list already! Cannot wait to read them.

I love being a Mom! I have had a great example. My Mom has always been there for me and I love her so! She is one of my best friends and I am glad we have the relationship that we have. She has given me great advice and she LOVES being a grandmother. Thanks Mom for being there always. I know that it is a bittersweet day for my mom, cause my grandma passed away almost 10 years ago after a battle with Breast cancer. I know that she missed her, but she is loved.

Well that's all I have today. Summer pictures will be coming....

The Good Guy Wins!?!

As I am sitting here listening to the Today show, I wonder just how many families are feeling justice today, the morning after finding out that one of the worst terrorist was finally found and killed? Osama Bin Laden was responsible for the murders of thousands Americans! He was a sick man.
I will always remember where I was on 911. I just remember having that horrible stomach pain when watching those towers go down and seeing the Pentagon crashed into, and hearing that another plane was headed towards the White House, and then crashed because brave Americans stood up against evil.
I just listened to this family on the Today show talk about their daughter who was in one of the Trade Towers on the horrible day. They said they talked to her right after the first plane crashed into her building. They said that she was scarred and she was hot. I COULD NOT imagine talking to one of my kids and knowing that they would not survive and telling them to stay calm. As a mother, knowing that you could not protect your child, hurts my heart.
10 years later, I still morn for those who were lost. I did not know anyone personally who was killed on that day, but I feel as a human that those people were my brothers and sisters. I wonder how many people repented their sins that day and were won to God? I can't help but wonder.
So as I reflect the events that happened 10 years ago, I want to know if the good guy won? I know that the job is not over and we should never let down our guard. I know that there is plenty of evil in this world and we would be dumb to let our ego get in the way of security. I still think that we have a road ahead of us. Maybe we will never be rid of terrorism in our world, but I guess we just have to pray that our Lord will protect us.

Me busy? Yeah Right!

Sometimes I wonder what the heck I am thinking when I spread myself too thin. I wish that was literal! (spreading myself thin LOL) This just tends to be a busy time at church. We have musical time, NTS Graduation, Easter, Mothers Day, Jory's Birthday, and this year a Wedding! Everything is so much fun. I think that I like being busy, but when you add on top of all that, raising two little kids, cutting hair and my duty's as far as being a wife aka Making dinner, laundry, cleaning, it is a little much. I am a very lucky woman though. I have a husband that does not complain about my ministry's at church and how busy I am in the evenings. He supports me and takes up his fare share of the workload.

With that said, I was in a MOOD yesterday! OY! Everything that the kids did annoyed me, everything that Jory said bugged me. Why couldn't everyone just leave me alone! For goodness sake I just wanted to pee in peace! LOL TMI?? I went to the bathroom and no sooner did I close that door, I had a little one yelling Mama, Mama!!!! Geeze Let me pee Sis!

Jory was at home yesterday, because he was sick. By the end of the day I just needed to get out of the house and away from everyone. It did not cure my mood, but it did help. I also ate some chocolate and that helped as well!

I think that this Mama needs some Lake time and some SUN!!!!

Really has it been THIS long??

I guess I should maybe do a quick update!

Really has it been almost a year since my last post on this blog? Oh me oh my! Life has taken over the blogging time. I forgot how relaxing and almost comforting blogging can be. Even if no one reads it.

Well, winter has come and gone and now it is Spring. The last 10 months or so, I have really tried to make huge changes in our household as far as eating and going to the gym. Weight has been such a struggle for me since I have had Christian. So we have made good strides to get the Swim house eating good healthy food like God intended it to be.

Jory and I bought a new boat this past January. It is a 2010 24' Tige. It is the boat of our dreams. We spend so much time at the lake, we really wanted something of our own that we could start making wonderful memories with the kids on. It is orange and black and white. Beautiful. I have yet to get out on to it. Jory and Christian have though and they both love it. I can't wait till Mothers Day weekend, to get out on it! It will be a blast this Summer!

Lily will soon be 2! I cannot believe it, 2 already??? Oh my, where has the time gone. She is getting to be so tall and big. Sometimes she talks, but Bubby does a lot of the talking for her. She looks like Jory and has a little attitude like me! ;)

Christian will be 5 in September. He will start pre-school in the fall, for 2 half days a week. He is SO excited to be in a classroom setting. I have been working on writing his letters at home. Before I know it he will be writing his name! I am not so sure I am ready for that yet.

This Easter season has really got me thinking about what Jesus really did for us. Oh my what a scary thing to have to face. I am sure glad that he did die on that old rugged cross for me and for you. I am so glad that my little boy asked him into his heart. It did get me thinking of the rest of the world that does not know him. I have been studying the book of Revelation. I want to make sure that EVERYONE that I know knows Jesus the way that I do. That he died on that cross for us, and that all of our sins have been forgiven. What an awesome thing. I want to be a good example for my kids and for my friends and everyone that sees me.

When life gets you down just remember the simple blessings that HE gives you everyday. I have always been a half-glass-full kinda gal. So that is how I try and live my life, in a way that I can see the positive.

First time at the Lake 2010

This past Saturday was our first time as a family down at the Lake! It was nice and relaxing! I am so happy that we were able to get out of town even though it was for 24 hours! We go down to our friends' Adam and Paula's lake house! CAS owns a travel trailer that we have brought down there to stay in. It is so much easier to stay in with both of the kids! Lots of room and then I can put them down for a nap and have it be nice and quiet in there. We did not bring down the boat this weekend though! We are wanting to have a bow-filler cushion made for the boat this week, so we did not bring it down. I did however bring down a big sprinkler ball! It was fun! C had a ton of fun with it!

We are going down this coming weekend, from Thurs- Tues! Jory took a few vacation days for it! It will be fun times!

My best memory's as a child and growing up, was of our family and our friends camping every year! I am hoping to make these kind of memories for our kids! Lets see if it works!?! Enjoy a few pictures!

First Hair Cut and Mothers Day

Well last Saturday was Lily's first hair cut! She did awesome! She sat real still and let me razor cut the back of her hair! I only cut the back b/c she was getting a little mullet, and we all know that I will not have a child that has bad hair!! Needless to say she is as cute as a button again! Well she was always cute now she is just mullet-less! LOL



Mothers Day was great! I had a really good time with my family in the morning and late afternoon! I had to work NTS graduation in the nursery this year, and I am glad that I was there, because we had almost 20 kids in the nursery that day!
We went to church that morning and then we came home and Jory made me lunch before I had to be back at church. He grilled some really yummy corn quesadillas with chicken and cheese in them! Oh boy they were yummy! After I worked at church, I came home and got the rest of the fam and went over to my parents house! My dad grilled up some supper yummy ribs and we had that for dinner! I got to see my Uncle Dan too! That was a perk!
I got some really awesome gifts too! My mom had the kids make me a stepping stone with their hand prints in it and Christian decorated it! It is beautiful! She got me a necklace with the kids birthstones and a cross on it! Jory and the kids got me some of my favorite flowers! I love them all! It was a really great Mothers Day!

Me and the Little man!

Mama and Me
My Little Angel baby!